Reminds me of..

I feel the pain that runs through my veins each time we talk like just nothing had happened. I maybe stupid but I can’t take this too long because If I let it happen, these thoughts would remain endlessly. I want you to change. Let me be that someone that people would remember each time of the day. Let me the lass who’s so triumphant and independent. Just someday. Oh, fuck. My thoughts are ruining my day. I said so. Holy shit.

My December Wish List-

Since December is coming and halos lahat nagpprepare na for Christmas, isshare ko lang yung mga gusto kong matanggap this holiday. Bawat bagay na ‘to may meaning para sakin. JSYK. 

1. Canon EOS Mark II - Since dati pa naman gustong gusto ko na talaga magkaron ng SLR, maghahangad na ‘ko ng sobra. Alam kong mahal pero sana mabigay na nila. Hi mom! *wink*

2. iPhone 4S/Samsung Galaxy S III  Isa pa ‘to, maghahangad na lang.. Lulubus-lubosin ko na. Sana nga lang masira na agad yung phone ko para may kapalit na agad. Gusto ko na magkaron ng android, srsly. 

3. 10 pairs of Heels - Kahit hindi halatang mahilig din ako sa shoes, gusto ko magkaron ng walk-in close na puro shoes. Flats and rubber shoes will do.

4. Dresses -  Dati talaga hindi ako mahilig mag-dress. Hindi ko alam kung ano sumapi sakin kaya bigla ko nang nagustuhan magdress. Ang simple lang kasing tignan. But not that girly.

5. Chocolates, Cakes and Flowers - Oo, hindi pa valentines. Pero hindi ko alam kung bakit ko gusto ko makatanggap ng ganito from someone sa Christmas. Siguro kasi dahil gusto kong malaman kung sincere sya on the way he will give these. Card is optional. It w’d be wonderful.

6. Jeans and Shirts -  I want to look new.

7. Manicure, Pedicure & Spa Treat with someone - Parang ang saya lang kasing isipin na may kasama ka habang nagrerelax ka. Wala lang. Yung feeling lang na lalo kang narerelax. Kahit saan naman will do. Basta comfortable.

8. Hopia and Milk Tea -  I love these. Christmas would be perfect with hopias and milk teas. 

9. Total make-over of my room - At dahil nagsasawa na ‘ko sa itsura ng kwarto ko, gusto kong mapalitan yung wall paint ng wallpaper na may pagka-vintage style. Gusto ko ding umayon sa wallpaper yung new design ng bed. Pati tv. Pati computer. I just want a preppy look. 

10. Cash - Para hindi na sila mahirapan mamili kung anong ibibigay, ako na lang bibili. 

Enough said. Na-share ko lang naman. 

The one that got away.

I mean, hindi ko naman pinagsisisihan yung nangyayari pero ba’t ang daming second thoughts sa utak ko. Wala na ‘kong magagawa, go with the flow. :|

Sometimes you have to test someone. Not because you don’t trust them, but to see how much they’re willing to prove they love you.

So this is the new me. Hello, new life & new friends! ♥ 

Everything I know about love, I learned it from you. And everything I know about pain, I learned it from you.

Tho’ wala na, gusto ko lang mag-thank you sa lahat ng memories. Alam ko namang alam mo kung sino ka, di ko na kailangan magbanggit ng pangalan. Sorry din sa lahat ng kasalanan ko, as in lahat.

Thank you kasi kahit papano nag-iba takbo ng buhay ko dahil sayo. Ang daming nagbago sakin, naging matured pa lalo ako siguro dahil sayo. Sana pagdating ng panahon, bumalik yung dati mag-KAIBIGAN tayo. Yung wala ng hatred sa isa’t isa. Yung wala nang malisya.

Sana din maging masaya ka na sa magiging buhay mo. Kasi ako, pinipilit ko na ding maging masaya. Kasi alam kong wala naman akong mapapala kung magiging malungkot ako. Siguro tama nga sila, maraming relationships na nawawala pagdating ng future.

Sorry kung naging isa ‘ko sa mga nagpatunay nun. Hindi ako naging ganun ka-loyal & ka-comitted kahit na ikaw sobrang tatag mo. Sorry kung hindi ko nahigitan yung attention mo. Sorry kung minsan ko naring nasira buhay mo.

Sana kahit ganito, yung wala tayong communication.. Sana pagpatuloy mo lang maging “ikaw” na nakilala ko dati bago pa maging tayo. Yung masayahin, yung walang iniisip kundi yung mga paraan para sumaya ka. Maging masaya ka sana sa mga bago mong mga kaibigan, sana din makahanap ka nang mas better sakin. Yung hindi gagawin yung ganto sayo. 

Share lang. If ever na mabasa mo.

Maybe someday, C. :) ♥

Just when I thought I was already in love with somebody else.

Just when I thought I was already in love with somebody else.

This is totally a crap. I mean, no. Am I that fast to like someone after breaking-up with my ex-boyfriend? Hindi ko talaga alam gagawin ko. Sasabay na lang ba ‘ko sa agos o ano? Well, this is life. The super lame life. TAMA NGA SILA. Yung mga relationships sa  high school, NAWAWALA PAGDATING NG COLLEGE. Anong meron sa college? Bahala na nga. Head up, and stay strong. ♥

I’m afraid to lose you. That’s why.

Maybe i’m falling for you.